Constant State of Schizoembolism

Yep, Jeff's favorite word for me freaking completely out has once again entered our vocabularies. I have obviously reached my peak dosage of steroids and it is now affecting everything and everyone around me. I completely lose that filter in my brain called tact when this happens.

This morning when I was walking into the building where my agency is, the groundskeeper, Mr. Calvin was in the hallway painting baseboards. I run into him at least once or twice a week in the mornings as I am getting to work and he is making his morning rounds. Well today was already not going well. I was, of course, running late and when I called to let Tosha know, she had decided to take the day off without really letting me know. That's another story ALL by itself that we just won't get into. So, anyway, here is what went down....

Mr. Calvin: Well good morning Kacy (as he is looking me up and down). I see you are still on your bulk up diet.

Kacy: Mr. Calvin, don't you know fat people F*ck better? (and I just went on up the stairs).

ARE YOU KIDDING ME? Did he really say that to me? Yep he did and I REALLY said that right back. Now, was I wrong for what I said? YEP. Was he wrong for what he said? YEP. Do two wrongs make a right? NOPE. Do I care? NOPE. S-C-H-I-Z-O-E-M-B-O-L-I-S-M!!

Hopefully, by the end of next week, we'll just be off the roids. I go in tomorrow for my TB skin test and the pre-cert work for the medication is under review with my insurance company. They called today with about a million questions.

We received a settlement offer on our court mess after Tuesday. We are still mulling it over and are supposed to meet with our attorney team on Wednesday. That's just added a lot more stress that we could honestly do without, but, HEY, just pile it all on. I've read, that which does not kill us only makes us stronger. If I could get my hands around the person's neck that came up with that, I'd probably break their crack pipe and then I'd kill them myself. If that was the case, I'd be one buff bitch by now but instead I'm just "bulking" up. HA.

I didn't post yesterday, because this mood had set in and I thought it would pass. It didn't, so sorry. I just try to keep it real. I don't guess it's real if I skip the days I'm not feeling all flowery.

Have a great weekend! Peace Out.
Kacy