Sunday, September 28, 2008

A Little Angry

I survived the casino last weekend. Were you worried about me? HA. I know, you probably weren't. I got a picture today from that night. It's pretty funny. We had our picture taken with Neal McCoy, which was the concert we were going to. We actually didn't go. We got our picture taken with him, found our way to the bar and then were lucky to find our way home. It was a busy week of soccer games and school. Jeff had a stomach bug while he was in New York and apparently brought it home with him. I had it late this week and Savannah got it today. She doesn't have much aim with her emisis. She just stands there and does it wherever she is. It has made for an interesting day.
Last night we went to Catfish and Khakis. That was pretty fun. The weather was perfect. It's just a big fundraising event put on by the Desoto County Junior Auxillary. They have a silent auction and I "won" private yoga lessons. That was a good thing since that's something the doctor recommended for me. It was good to see everybody out and having a good time.
I'm working on changing my style. Have you ever thought about your style. I really hadn't until all of a sudden out of the 80 or so pairs of shoes I had, I could wear about 3. I've always been a three inch heel girl. I don't know why, but that was my preference. Well, not anymore. My feet are so swollen and they hurt so bad there is no way I'm sticking them in a heel. Of course, all of my pants are the right length for that 3 inch heel. I know this all sounds really stupid, but it's really a difficult by product of this mess. I'm also trying to learn how to cook veggies. I'm not a cook and I don't really like veggies so once again, not a real easy task. I saw another doctor on Tuesday and he at least seemed to understand some of the anxiety issues I was having. I guess just to know that feeling freaked is normal helped a little. I've just been angry. I haven't had much to say because I'm not proud of how I feel, but I'm also not going to lie about it. I've wondered what I did wrong in my life to deserve this. I know a lot of things I've done wrong but I know a lot of people who have done much worse. I'm angry that my energy is zapped. I'm angry that I'm 35 and I pictured years of playing hard with my babies. I'm angry that the strength to pick my son up is gone. I'm also angry for being angry.
I'm working on my mind and hopefully my body will follow.
Stay posted for some new pictures I took today. We have a new very interesting canine relationship brewing in the ole Acree Abode. I'll also figure out how to scan our picture with Neal McCoy in. Can you believe I don't know how to do that? HA.
I'm heading to bed early tonight. I was out late last night and I'm sure SavyG will be up several times.

1 comment:

Dawn said...

Hey Sweetie. I am sorry you are angry, but I can't blame you. It's not fair. I haven't been in your shoes, but do what you can to turn your anger into something positive. Fight back and help others with your fight.

It was great seeing you Saturday looked great.

Have a great rest of the week and keep your chin up.

Love you girl!